If we thought TRUST was hard to give BEFORE, as in pre-1990s and earlier, it’s even harder to giver NOW.
With the Internet at our finger tips, we’re capable at getting our hands into EVERYTHING. From porn to limitless acquaintances to online dating sites to personal photos. And what makes it more difficult is that we can access these things anytime, anywhere, and cover our tracks….delete messages, delete histories, secret accounts, secret lists on public accounts, etc.
So even though I, for example, feel I give my trust to someone, there’s always a part of me that can’t give 100% of it. And it drives me crazy. I hate not being 100% sure that I can trust someone. I hate that even though I feel like I know everything about someone and their lives, that I really DON’T. I mean, how can I? We can totally carry on a second relationship so easily these days….undetected….while still carrying on a relationship in real life.
I hate feeling uncertain, insecure, unable to trust. I hate feeling like I’m not good enough, not interesting enough, incapable and unworthy.